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Dame la lluvia
So that i can see my dad cry Give me a miscarriage To birth 1000 oceans Sleep in the warmth De tus brazos, abrazos En los días largos I swipe space bars to travel a ti Idiota idioma Colonized by too languages No quiero escribir amor Accent, acento Tomemos un momento to Speak the same palabras In the same exacto lengua Y never understand nosotras Receptionist in Malcovich Green grows por los gringos ¿Entendiste? ¿Entendiste? I take an anticucho skewer Use it to scratch the inside of your throat Whisper chirimoyas into your red bean Moon cake! Curse the pheasant air you breathe! Quiero ser una bruja lucuma ¡chifa! ¡chufa! ¡enchufa! Gracias por la lluvia Nunca puedes decir que tu me entiendes Porque nunca puedes entenderme ¡Dadá dadá! Mamá, Dígame, ¿adonde fue mi hermana? You asked me where I'm from, but You never asked me where I'm from Electricity gave us white lights My home less incandescent Mi casa en el viento Hongo crece on my tongue -- Hunting - emotion, language, home, self, lost family, expressing myself, too much sense in the world i want to not make sense, want to find no reason, i want to be a witch and curse you so that you can never try to understand, you will never understand, wanting to speak Spanish and feeling unable, feeling colonized by 2 languages and still wanting to learn more Spanish Fucking up form, form of dada being run by men, invisible labor by women, dada as always having existed, dada white Spanish men and duchamp as response to war Hunted - by white men, white institutions, non chinese latinx, people who dont understand mix or mix of Chinese body speaking Spanish, whiteness as family breaker, broken family, home mover/displacer, where I'm from, past países, warmth then violence, by language I want to curse language curse language, response to being hunted by language, generations of languages, compromiso/compromising between languages Hunted by people who want to relate their experiences to Peru when they know very little about Peru or my experience Random someone's dream abt mushrooms and aphids https://beyondrivalry.wordpress.com/2014/12/19/the-nature-of-dreams-or-dreams-about-nature/ Help
My body doesn't match up with my language Or My language doesn't match up with my body Our It's really just a construct Help I am codeswitch to much Much codeswitch i did Oye No mow I am me anywhere Male play smell bans Make place anywhere I take up space Stink face Help I feel at home with a strange I feel ay home with a stranger I fell at home with ambivalence I'm stranger Ay The ambiguity They don't understand my ambiguous! I understand my ambiguously! ¡Ayuda! No detergente us eeuu (Not everything is easy) I am nor easty Yeasty Dumpling a la huancaina Trapped
By lenguas All imperial, colonial Quiero hablar en tupos In slants With romance Sin ritmo ni rimo Embrace my swollen tongue |